Me and my internet boy friend~

i did not tell to my friend that i have a boy friend~

it is because my boy friend is a internet boy friend~

i never meet him~

he call vincent,for he information he is 30 years old businessman~

we know each other is from zyna poker (facebook game)

i still remember 1st time i know him,he try to chat with me~

of cause,i have reply him in the chat box! but,when he asked me phone number,

i didn't care him anymore~

because i don't like people send message to me or call me if is not my real life friend~

usually my internet friend i only allow them chat with me in the MSN or facebook ~

so,start from the day he take phone number with me i did not reply any message that he send me in zyna poker~

one day,i saw him add me as friend in the facebook! he finally found me :)

sure,for me,everyone who add me as friend whether that person is ugly is fat i also will approve~ i will welcome them to be my friend! :)

he add me in facebook and MSN,he try to chat with me~ this time he did not ask my phone number anymore~

after for a few day we chat~ he relapse~ he keep asking me my phone number~

as usual... i did not tell him my phone number~

he is angry~ he spam my MSN~

keep scolding me and explain that he promise me would not bother me~

when he spam my MSN, i did not feel any angry, i laugh!

i feel he is cute~ ^^

lastly,i surrender... but due to my "law" i only give him 9 number~ (my phone number have 10 digit) and other 1 number~ i want he call 1 by 1 and find me! ^^

he was very angry~ he angry and spam again my MSN and said i am not enough sincerity to friend with him~

he tell me that he is crazy on me~ he like me even love me~

but according to my ''law" i already have give a big chance to him have my phone number~ :)

lastly,he really 1 by 1 to call whole 0~9 number people! he found me~

when i picked up his phone~

when i say hello~

he did not answer me~ he keep quiet and try to listen my voice see whether is boy a girl~

he SMS me~ is that you,joanna?

i reply "yes,i am!"

he told me my voice is very sweet but he still feel angry~

he feel i fool him~

actually i not really fool him~

because in my mine~ if he lazy to try 1 by 1 find my phone number~

then i will feel him he is not enough sincerity too~ ♡

how we start in love relationship?

when i have feel with him??

hmm~ i think is when he spam my MSN,i feel he is cute~

he keep telling me i am very pretty~ he hope i can be his wife~

how sweet every sentence he told me~

i feel happy~ and i am fall in love with him~

but i really feel not safe~

maybe i never meet him~

maybe i don know his background~

maybe i never try to have internet BF b4!

and he say he is a rich guy~

he have his own business~

he have his own house and car~

he say his almost nearly a perfect life human~

but he told me~ he is short! he only have 165CM high!

he asked me will me mind if i short than him?

i don know~ i only know i'm falling in "unsure" love~

i don know how to believe him~

because it did not have any prove~

no any prove that he is rich~

no any prove that he is no wife no Gf in a real life!

i don know how to do it!

i very scare! i very scare he is lie me!

many time i try to give up!

try to cut the relationship!

but the result is failed!! failed and failed!!!

every time when we are quarrel~ feel that cannot continue again~

i will insomnia~ i could not sleep~ and my brain keep thinking of him~

cannot afford the pressure~ (without him)

so untill now~

he is my secret BF that i did not tell anybody know~

Why?

it is because i know my friend will say me i am crazy~

it is because i scare him lie me~

it is because it is unreal in my life~

many many reason~

so i cannot tell them~

i don know how to do it~

so i write here~

i hope any people who don know me and give me some suggestion!

should i continue with him?

should i ??